I haven’t been posting for a few days because I don’t want to just post because I feel I have to.
I thought long and hard about my weight. This weekend has been very difficult for me, I struggled to stay on track with my eating.
I promised that we will do this journey honestly, and I said, the first step to overcoming an issue is to admit you have, or had, a problem.
The truth about my weight gain…
As a little girl I wore very thick glasses. Now we all know children, they don’t think. You can just imagine being the only child with “four eyes” in a pre primary school – horrible!! I struggled to make friends, I was teased almost everyday: “are you looking at me?”
How does a child of 5 years old handle a comment like that? It’s not my fault there is something wrong with my eyes? – Don’t feel bad for me, I am a big girl now with beautiful brown eyes.
The sad truth is;
How do you make a child happy? By giving him/her a sweetie!! And that was what made me smile. I do not blame my parents, they gave me all the love I needed but there was always that hole in my heart – I can’t look people in the eye, literally!!
So I ate a sweetie and It made me happy.
Emotional eating is like an addiction, once you start filling those holes with food you will always go to food when you feel sad, emotional, lonely.
It is NOT good!!! You need to find an alternative for food. It makes NO sense why you would want to eat your pain away. I always think about it:
You are unhappy because you are being teased. Now you eat to feel better. So… you would rather be teased for being fat?? How does that make sense?
I read an article, Emotional Eating? 5 Reasons You Can’t Stop
It explains that food release a substance in your brain that makes you feel good, after you are finished eating you feel worse!!!
It’s not good to give food all that credit in your life. It CANNOT make your problems go away, you need to find happiness in yourself, realise that you are so special and nothing that happened in your life can ever defeat the BEAST thats inside of you.
Everything that happens to you is put in your way to make you stronger, to allow you to be better and to be there for people that is going through tuff times themselves.
I am trying everyday to defeat food. When I am sad, I try not to give food the credit for my happiness. There is no happiness in being fat. It breaks you down, it gives you a low self esteem, it’s AWFUL!!!
I am no longer an emotional eater!!!
Food will no longer make me happy because what it actually does is, it makes me SAD!! I do not want to be sad or feel bad about myself!!
I can do anything I put my mind to.
– I always believed that!!
I made a decision after struggling this weekend – I am stronger than my feelings.
“My brain achieves what my mind believes…” my mind will no longer think of food all the time! I will train my brain from today, to think healthy!!
This photo gripped me, it is so important.
Instead of saying, “I CAN’T eat that.” I will say, “I Do Not eat that” – such powerful words.
Weightloss is more brain power than anything else. You can have the best gym, the healthiest food in your fridge.. If your mind is not right you WILL NOT loose weight!!! You will find a way to cheat, somehow, somewhere.
Before you start doing anything, you have to get your head in the game!!! You have to set your mind on what you want to achieve!!!