Health, weightloss

Why did I get fat in the first place, emotional eating??

I haven’t been posting for a few days because I don’t want to just post because I feel I have to.

I thought long and hard about my weight. This weekend has been very difficult for me, I struggled to stay on track with my eating.

I promised that we will do this journey honestly, and I said, the first step to overcoming an issue is to admit you have, or had, a problem.

The truth about my weight gain…

As a little girl I wore very thick glasses. Now we all know children, they don’t think. You can just imagine being the only child with “four eyes” in a pre primary school – horrible!! I struggled to make friends, I was teased almost everyday: “are you looking at me?”

How does a child of 5 years old handle a comment like that? It’s not my fault there is something wrong with my eyes? – Don’t feel bad for me, I am a big girl now with beautiful brown eyes.

The sad truth is;

How do you make a child happy? By giving him/her a sweetie!! And that was what made me smile. I do not blame my parents, they gave me all the love I needed but there was always that hole in my heart – I can’t look people in the eye, literally!!

So I ate a sweetie and It made me happy.

Emotional eating is like an addiction, once you start filling those holes with food you will always go to food when you feel sad, emotional, lonely.

It is NOT good!!! You need to find an alternative for food. It makes NO sense why you would want to eat your pain away. I always think about it:

You are unhappy because you are being teased. Now you eat to feel better. So… you would rather be teased for being fat?? How does that make sense?

I read an article, Emotional Eating? 5 Reasons You Can’t Stop

It explains that food release a substance in your brain that makes you feel good, after you are finished eating you feel worse!!!

It’s not good to give food all that credit in your life. It CANNOT make your problems go away, you need to find happiness in yourself, realise that you are so special and nothing that happened in your life can ever defeat the BEAST thats inside of you.

Everything that happens to you is put in your way to make you stronger, to allow you to be better and to be there for people that is going through tuff times themselves.

I am trying everyday to defeat food. When I am sad, I try not to give food the credit for my happiness. There is no happiness in being fat. It breaks you down, it gives you a low self esteem, it’s AWFUL!!!

I am no longer an emotional eater!!!

Food will no longer make me happy because what it actually does is, it makes me SAD!! I do not want to be sad or feel bad about myself!!

I can do anything I put my mind to.

– I always believed that!!

I made a decision after struggling this weekend – I am stronger than my feelings.

“My brain achieves what my mind believes…” my mind will no longer think of food all the time! I will train my brain from today, to think healthy!!

This photo gripped me, it is so important.

Instead of saying, “I CAN’T eat that.” I will say, “I Do Not eat that” – such powerful words.

Weightloss is more brain power than anything else. You can have the best gym, the healthiest food in your fridge.. If your mind is not right you WILL NOT loose weight!!! You will find a way to cheat, somehow, somewhere.

Before you start doing anything, you have to get your head in the game!!! You have to set your mind on what you want to achieve!!!

journey, weightloss

Weather for all the wrong foods

It’s raining today… This to me means lying infront of the tv and eating all the wrong foods!!

Because that is what I used to do, today is going to be a fight till I go to bed tonight. I am craving all wrong foods – burgers, chips, milkshake (yes, we used to eat Mc Donalds ice cream when it rains).

I ate my oats this morning and I am starving, it’s been 3 hours. I know I’m not really hungry, it’s the weather thats awaken my bad habits of the past. I will not give in!!!

 I read this article now, 11 Ways to Stop Cravings for Unhealthy Foods and Sugar 

It helped me to rearrange my focus back to what I am doing and WHY I am doing it.

  • To look good
  • Feel good
  • Be healthy
  • Wear nice clothes!!

Doesn’t this look smashing?? Absoluuuutely!!! It looks like something I can put my face in right now! Do I want to? Absolutely NOT!!

It takes 10 minutes (at the most) to finish a burger. Yes it will be amazing but is it worth not being able to wear that nice bikini you saw hanging in the windows of a shop?  For 10 minutes pleasure in your mouth? Nooooo!!! The taste goes away but it takes MONTHS of feeling sad, insecure, ugly, fat, uncomfortable – the list goes on….

It’s not worth it. I drank a glass of water and now I am going to take a drive to get my attention away from the cravings. I know it may sound redicilous, “she’s driving to forget she’s craving things, isn’t that a little over the top?” It might be for you, but that helps me. I need to keep busy.

People don’t realise, this is NOT easy, it’s like an addiction and I am getting ‘withdrawal symptoms’, it is raining, these are the days I eat most so I want my food, now!! Thats the feeling, I am not joking – it’s bad!!

But I am in ‘rehab’ for this addiction of mine and if it means driving 100km’s to get my mind of food, thats what I’ll do..but giving in to my cravings,  I will NOT do!!!