Health, weightloss

Why did I get fat in the first place, emotional eating??

I haven’t been posting for a few days because I don’t want to just post because I feel I have to.

I thought long and hard about my weight. This weekend has been very difficult for me, I struggled to stay on track with my eating.

I promised that we will do this journey honestly, and I said, the first step to overcoming an issue is to admit you have, or had, a problem.

The truth about my weight gain…

As a little girl I wore very thick glasses. Now we all know children, they don’t think. You can just imagine being the only child with “four eyes” in a pre primary school – horrible!! I struggled to make friends, I was teased almost everyday: “are you looking at me?”

How does a child of 5 years old handle a comment like that? It’s not my fault there is something wrong with my eyes? – Don’t feel bad for me, I am a big girl now with beautiful brown eyes.

The sad truth is;

How do you make a child happy? By giving him/her a sweetie!! And that was what made me smile. I do not blame my parents, they gave me all the love I needed but there was always that hole in my heart – I can’t look people in the eye, literally!!

So I ate a sweetie and It made me happy.

Emotional eating is like an addiction, once you start filling those holes with food you will always go to food when you feel sad, emotional, lonely.

It is NOT good!!! You need to find an alternative for food. It makes NO sense why you would want to eat your pain away. I always think about it:

You are unhappy because you are being teased. Now you eat to feel better. So… you would rather be teased for being fat?? How does that make sense?

I read an article, Emotional Eating? 5 Reasons You Can’t Stop

It explains that food release a substance in your brain that makes you feel good, after you are finished eating you feel worse!!!

It’s not good to give food all that credit in your life. It CANNOT make your problems go away, you need to find happiness in yourself, realise that you are so special and nothing that happened in your life can ever defeat the BEAST thats inside of you.

Everything that happens to you is put in your way to make you stronger, to allow you to be better and to be there for people that is going through tuff times themselves.

I am trying everyday to defeat food. When I am sad, I try not to give food the credit for my happiness. There is no happiness in being fat. It breaks you down, it gives you a low self esteem, it’s AWFUL!!!

I am no longer an emotional eater!!!

Food will no longer make me happy because what it actually does is, it makes me SAD!! I do not want to be sad or feel bad about myself!!

I can do anything I put my mind to.

– I always believed that!!

I made a decision after struggling this weekend – I am stronger than my feelings.

“My brain achieves what my mind believes…” my mind will no longer think of food all the time! I will train my brain from today, to think healthy!!

This photo gripped me, it is so important.

Instead of saying, “I CAN’T eat that.” I will say, “I Do Not eat that” – such powerful words.

Weightloss is more brain power than anything else. You can have the best gym, the healthiest food in your fridge.. If your mind is not right you WILL NOT loose weight!!! You will find a way to cheat, somehow, somewhere.

Before you start doing anything, you have to get your head in the game!!! You have to set your mind on what you want to achieve!!!

journey, weightloss

Weather for all the wrong foods

It’s raining today… This to me means lying infront of the tv and eating all the wrong foods!!

Because that is what I used to do, today is going to be a fight till I go to bed tonight. I am craving all wrong foods – burgers, chips, milkshake (yes, we used to eat Mc Donalds ice cream when it rains).

I ate my oats this morning and I am starving, it’s been 3 hours. I know I’m not really hungry, it’s the weather thats awaken my bad habits of the past. I will not give in!!!

 I read this article now, 11 Ways to Stop Cravings for Unhealthy Foods and Sugar 

It helped me to rearrange my focus back to what I am doing and WHY I am doing it.

  • To look good
  • Feel good
  • Be healthy
  • Wear nice clothes!!

Doesn’t this look smashing?? Absoluuuutely!!! It looks like something I can put my face in right now! Do I want to? Absolutely NOT!!

It takes 10 minutes (at the most) to finish a burger. Yes it will be amazing but is it worth not being able to wear that nice bikini you saw hanging in the windows of a shop?  For 10 minutes pleasure in your mouth? Nooooo!!! The taste goes away but it takes MONTHS of feeling sad, insecure, ugly, fat, uncomfortable – the list goes on….

It’s not worth it. I drank a glass of water and now I am going to take a drive to get my attention away from the cravings. I know it may sound redicilous, “she’s driving to forget she’s craving things, isn’t that a little over the top?” It might be for you, but that helps me. I need to keep busy.

People don’t realise, this is NOT easy, it’s like an addiction and I am getting ‘withdrawal symptoms’, it is raining, these are the days I eat most so I want my food, now!! Thats the feeling, I am not joking – it’s bad!!

But I am in ‘rehab’ for this addiction of mine and if it means driving 100km’s to get my mind of food, thats what I’ll do..but giving in to my cravings,  I will NOT do!!!

Health, journey

Homemade Smoothie Recipes

Having a smoothie is always a good start to my day, especially in summer. Eating heavy foods is not always the best option, when you live in a place where the heat is terrible you tend to feel very uncomfortable after eating a hot or heavy meal.

Smoothies can give you an extra boost of minerals, vitamins and phytochemicals because it often includes fruit skins and pith. When you decide to make your smoothie with yoghurt or milk, it gives you a calsium boost aswell.

Now I’ve read about smoothies helping for weight loss – they say, “Calories in liquid form have less satiety, or hunger-curbing power, than calories in solid form.”

So in other words, it doesn’t keep you so full, as it would’ve if you ate the fruits whole. 

I tend to disagree, having a smoothie in the morning makes me feel so good and actually keeps me full for quite a while, when I eventually get hungry, it’s a nibbly feeling, not this terrible hunger feeling of eating a 500g steak.

Anyway, thats my opinion and what I feel works for me. Here is a few smoothie recipes if ever you feel like throwing a few fruits in a blender.

Strawberry Smoothie

1  cup frozen strawberries

1  cup milk/fat free yoghurt

1  banana

8 -10  ice cubes

Kiwi Smoothie

3 kiwifruit, peeled and cut into chunks

2 frozen banans, cut up into 4 pieces

1 cup frozen blueberries

1 cup fat-free plain yogurt

3 tablespoons honey

1-1/2 cups crushed ice

Add a little bit of water and blend together until all leafy chunks are gone.

Add mango, pineapple and bananas and blend again until smooth.

Banana Smoothie
2 bananas

375ml (1 1/2 cups) skim milk

70g (1/4 cup) fat free yoghurt

2 tablespoons crunchy peanut butter

1 tablespoon honey

6 ice cubes
Green Smoothie

Tightly pack 2 cups of leafy greens in a measuring cup and then toss into blender

1 cup of plain, fat free yoghurt
Watermelon Smoothie

  • 3 cups seedless watermelon, frozen
  • 1 cup milk (almond milk, soy milk, whole milk)
  • 1/2 cup plain yoghurt yogurt
  • 3 tablespoons maple syrup
  • Enjoy!!!
Exercise, Health

For us woman – menstrual cycle and excersing

I usually start getting cramps two days before my menstrual cycle starts. It gets so bad that I almost literally can’t walk.

That pain started today, after a weekend of rest, not exercising. It’s Monday, I HAVE to do my workout!!

I doubted for a while, thinking to myself “I can’t do this”. So I put my fingers to work and went on my old friend “Google”. So many stories and different opinions, I never know which advice to follow. 

I do know Exercise is really good for you when it’s “that time of the month” but to get yourself to do it. Ugh!!

Exercise helps with the circulation in your body, with results – less pain, less cramps.

Excersing is wonderful for your brain, feeling positive, motivated, and energised. 

 Sleep, sleep, sleep, you can never rest enough when on your menstrual cycle, it reduces pain and get your energy levels up to where it’s supposed to be.

 Having your menstrual cycle can be stressful, you can feel depressed, anxious and MOODY (thats me, misses emotional) Again, EXERCISE is the answer when feeling down, 

“Exercise releases chemicals called endorphins. These endorphins interact with the receptors in your brain and it makes you feel GOOD!!!”

workouts recommended to do during your period planking exercises, aerobics, dance, zumba 

Take it slow, do what you can and EXERCISE, it’s natural medicine to reduse pain…it’s FREE!! 

Health, journey

Confession time..

So I have a confession.

I don’t believe in cheat days, it messes up my whole mindset. When I do something I want to do it all the way or not at all…

Today it was one of our colleagues Birthdays and his wife ordered cake, Oh my Word!!! Black forist cake to tell you. I felt so bad to say that I don’t want a slice, she went through all the effort, invited us for a slice and then what am I supposed to say? “No thank you I don’t want”??

So I had a slice…Afterwards I felt SO bad, it felt like I ate a cow. 

I was standing outside thinking about this story when I realised, this is not a diet I am doing, it’s a LIFESTYLE CHANGE!!! I can’t say I will never have cake again, I am still (hopefully) going to live another good 50 years and to say I will never have cake again is unrealistic. 

Yes, I will never have a HALF of the cake again, but a small slice on someones birthday won’t kill me right?

I don’t like ‘cheating’, especially seeing that it’s so early into my journey. But it is a whole mind shifting process that I had to go through – in the past I did ’30 day diets’ or ‘loose 10kg’s in 2 weeks’, yes, THEN you can’t cheat because it’s scheduled meals you have to stick to.

I realised today, after a fight with myelf, having a slice of cake is not cheating, there is no CHEATING in a lifestyle change, only bad decisions!! Having 3 slices, thats rediculous – BAD decision!! 

Changing your lifestyle is realising  how much of something you can have before it’s bad for you. Not killing yourself over something you ate but to realise you are only human. 

I will never buy myself cake or a chocolate again, that I promise you. Buying it for MYSELF is out!! I prefer not eating wrong things anymore but when something like today happens where you are put in a situation where it’s a birthday for example – have a slice, ENJOY it and forget about it!!!

It’s a lifestyle change, not a quick fix diet!!

I don’t know if I’m wrong, I am sure you’ve come across a similar situation before, what did you do??


How important is it to start? 

“Losing weight might be a result but it shouldn’t be the goal”

What does that mean?

Losing weight should not be your only objective. Making lifestyle changes, being healthier is what you should be focusing on. By doing it this way, losing weight will automatically be the result.

It’s the little bit you do each and every day that will make the difference long term and long term changes is what we are after, right? 

Just think about it this way – you were doing nothing before deciding to start doing something

Something is better than nothing.

It’s the small steps you take that will get you where you ultimately want to be.

Small things you can do: 

  • Drink water instead of gassy coldrinks
  • Use olive oil rather than sunflower oil
  • Eat salad instead of fries
  • Grilled fish rather than fried fish

These are just a few simple examples of small changes you can make that will change your end results.

 The more you do, the more you want to do!!

Once you start seeing and feeling the difference in your body because of the small changes you’ve made, wouldn’t you then want to do more to feel and look even better? 

It’s  all about making the decision to START

If you don’t make the decision to start you will never know how it feels to be able to live the life you always dreamed about. It’s never a easy decision but onve you’ve made that decision it’s very important to stick to it!! 

  1. Make the decision to get started
  2. Make small changes every day
  3. Stay motivated
  4. Feel awesome about yourself and the changes you’ve made
  5. Keep working hard
  6. Reach your goal 

It’s not always easy…

Day 3 of my journey…

Today has been a very difficult day, I started on Monday, exercising twice a day and eating healthy.

My body is busy adjusting to the changes I have been making, but it’s not an easy process. 

I said this journey will be completely honest – I am honest if I say, today was a very emotional and hard day.

I am tired, sore, always hungry and I even feel fatter. So I actually went on google to see what is wrong with me.. (I do that all the time) and I read that it is quite normal to feel like this in the beginning of your weightloss process. It is a big change for your body to go from Mc Donalds to Salad and it will take time. 

Now, in the past this is where I gave up, when I feel emotional and I feel fatter than ever, I buy a chocolate..

Thats my past, today I am very proud to say, I cried a few times today, my body was sore and I had cravings for all kinds of funny things – I put my gym clothes on and did a proper workout!!! This to me is a big big step in showing myself that this time I will not fail.

It’s fine to be emotional sometimes, I don’t think people realise what a huge emotional journey it is to loose weight. 

If you know someone thats trying, Pleeeease motivate them, be there for them, I promise you they need it!

I am very lucky to have a boyfriend thats so helpful, and is there to wipe away all my MANY tears..(haha), he exercises with me, he even cooks for me (he knows all the tricks to cooking food the healthy way)

I am very greatful and I do believe we all need someone to support us.

Every time I feel bad or demotivated I remind myself WHY I want to loose weight. I want to look good and feel healthy!! 


Remides to fixing stretch marks

So we all know that woman mainly develop stretch marks when they are pregnant.

Thats not the only reason for stretch marks, there are a few other causes to these ugly lines we get on our body.

My cause for them is picking up weight, going on a miracle diet, loose 10kg’s and gaining it all back again.

Being overweight causes many negative reactions in your body, stretch marks being one of them.

I came across these homemade remides that assist in fading stretch marks. I haven’t tried it yet, but I will.

Let’s have a look:


 What you will need

  • 1/2 cup organic coconut oil
  • 1/2 cup of ground coffee
  • 1.5 tbsp of ground cinnamon
  • 1/2 cup of sugar

How to use it

  • Add all ingredients together in a clean container and mix them until it forms a paste.
  • Gently scrub the affected area in the morning for 8 minutes.
  • Make sure that the scrub is stored in an airtight container so that it maintains its properties.

Potatoes– a great source of Vitamin C and Magnesium
What will you need

  • 1 medium sized potato
  • Lukewarm water

How to use it

  • Cut the potato in the thick slices and then rub the slices gently over the affected areas.
  • Now leave it on for 10 minutes and then wash it off with the lukewarm water.


What you will need

  • 1 egg
  • Water

How to use it

  • Separate the yolk from the egg white.
  • Now stir the egg whites and apply it on to the stretch marks. Leave it on for 20 minutes and then wash it off with clean water.

There we go, a few homemade recipes I found, that, I know sounds weird. I never thought eggs and potatoes would help for something like stretch marks but there’s no harm in trying, right?


The start of a new “ME”

Today is the start of my journey, the 15th. On my moms birthday (Happy Birthday mom)

Why did I choose this date?

It feels like its a DECISION to succeed!! If I started on the first it would’ve been a new years resolution, and we all know what happens to those….by the 15th it’s long gone!! I guess it’s once again a all in the mind thing, but if it works for my mind I’m happy.

I decided if I’m going to do this I need to it properly so I took before photos… Almost in tears when I saw them, I doubted if I really want to post them, but I said in the beginning, “this journey won’t be easy”, so I need to face the difficult moments aswell, get through it and prove to myself that I CAN do this!!!

So there we go, my before photos…

I am quite tall, I am 1.8m’s.

I need to weigh 75kg’s, because I’ve got medium bone structure.

I currently weigh 112kg’s, so I need to loose quite a bit. I gave myself a year, which I think is enough time to reach my goal weight which is 75kg.

So as of today I am doing it, I am fighting for my body to get back to where it is suppose to be!!! 

I will,

  •  Drink my 8 glasses of water a day, no gas coldrinks
  • No bread
  • Eat enough fruits
  • Look at my portion sizes
  • Cut out the Aromat ( I am addicted to Aromat, but NO more)
  • Cook my food healthy
  • Eat no sweeties, no chippies
  • Make healthy choices
  • Exercise twice a day, even if one exercise a day is just stretches or pilates, I will do something active twice a day
  • Sit less, move more
  • Stay happy and motivated

I am happy to share these horrific photos with you because I know I am still beautiful and I know I am sharing it because I won’t be looking like that in a years time.

Loosing weight is never easy but it is DEFINITELY worth it!!!”

We can do this together, I need all the support I can get, It’s NOT easy to admit that you are not happy with yourself but you need to do it if you want to change!!

I did my exercise this morning, my Pilates workout, I feel good and motivated.

 This afternoon I will do some skipping, squats and leg exercises, I will actually make a video and post it so that we can see my progress from day one.

This journey won’t be easy, but I will get to the other side much stronger and definitely much fitter!! December this year I am going into the Guess shop and I will be buying one of each jeans they’ve got!!! (They don’t have my size now) – that will be my reward, really!! My boyfriend said so, he is taking me shopping!!

It’s something to look forward to, when doing something for yourself you must always have a goal and if that goal is reached you need to have a reward to look forward to, thats my reward… Shopping at the GUESS shop!! Oelala I can’t wait!!!

Let’s do this!!! Lets get the bodies we’ve always wanted!!