Health, weightloss

Why did I get fat in the first place, emotional eating??

I haven’t been posting for a few days because I don’t want to just post because I feel I have to.

I thought long and hard about my weight. This weekend has been very difficult for me, I struggled to stay on track with my eating.

I promised that we will do this journey honestly, and I said, the first step to overcoming an issue is to admit you have, or had, a problem.

The truth about my weight gain…

As a little girl I wore very thick glasses. Now we all know children, they don’t think. You can just imagine being the only child with “four eyes” in a pre primary school – horrible!! I struggled to make friends, I was teased almost everyday: “are you looking at me?”

How does a child of 5 years old handle a comment like that? It’s not my fault there is something wrong with my eyes? – Don’t feel bad for me, I am a big girl now with beautiful brown eyes.

The sad truth is;

How do you make a child happy? By giving him/her a sweetie!! And that was what made me smile. I do not blame my parents, they gave me all the love I needed but there was always that hole in my heart – I can’t look people in the eye, literally!!

So I ate a sweetie and It made me happy.

Emotional eating is like an addiction, once you start filling those holes with food you will always go to food when you feel sad, emotional, lonely.

It is NOT good!!! You need to find an alternative for food. It makes NO sense why you would want to eat your pain away. I always think about it:

You are unhappy because you are being teased. Now you eat to feel better. So… you would rather be teased for being fat?? How does that make sense?

I read an article, Emotional Eating? 5 Reasons You Can’t Stop

It explains that food release a substance in your brain that makes you feel good, after you are finished eating you feel worse!!!

It’s not good to give food all that credit in your life. It CANNOT make your problems go away, you need to find happiness in yourself, realise that you are so special and nothing that happened in your life can ever defeat the BEAST thats inside of you.

Everything that happens to you is put in your way to make you stronger, to allow you to be better and to be there for people that is going through tuff times themselves.

I am trying everyday to defeat food. When I am sad, I try not to give food the credit for my happiness. There is no happiness in being fat. It breaks you down, it gives you a low self esteem, it’s AWFUL!!!

I am no longer an emotional eater!!!

Food will no longer make me happy because what it actually does is, it makes me SAD!! I do not want to be sad or feel bad about myself!!

I can do anything I put my mind to.

– I always believed that!!

I made a decision after struggling this weekend – I am stronger than my feelings.

“My brain achieves what my mind believes…” my mind will no longer think of food all the time! I will train my brain from today, to think healthy!!

This photo gripped me, it is so important.

Instead of saying, “I CAN’T eat that.” I will say, “I Do Not eat that” – such powerful words.

Weightloss is more brain power than anything else. You can have the best gym, the healthiest food in your fridge.. If your mind is not right you WILL NOT loose weight!!! You will find a way to cheat, somehow, somewhere.

Before you start doing anything, you have to get your head in the game!!! You have to set your mind on what you want to achieve!!!


It’s not always easy…

Day 3 of my journey…

Today has been a very difficult day, I started on Monday, exercising twice a day and eating healthy.

My body is busy adjusting to the changes I have been making, but it’s not an easy process. 

I said this journey will be completely honest – I am honest if I say, today was a very emotional and hard day.

I am tired, sore, always hungry and I even feel fatter. So I actually went on google to see what is wrong with me.. (I do that all the time) and I read that it is quite normal to feel like this in the beginning of your weightloss process. It is a big change for your body to go from Mc Donalds to Salad and it will take time. 

Now, in the past this is where I gave up, when I feel emotional and I feel fatter than ever, I buy a chocolate..

Thats my past, today I am very proud to say, I cried a few times today, my body was sore and I had cravings for all kinds of funny things – I put my gym clothes on and did a proper workout!!! This to me is a big big step in showing myself that this time I will not fail.

It’s fine to be emotional sometimes, I don’t think people realise what a huge emotional journey it is to loose weight. 

If you know someone thats trying, Pleeeease motivate them, be there for them, I promise you they need it!

I am very lucky to have a boyfriend thats so helpful, and is there to wipe away all my MANY tears..(haha), he exercises with me, he even cooks for me (he knows all the tricks to cooking food the healthy way)

I am very greatful and I do believe we all need someone to support us.

Every time I feel bad or demotivated I remind myself WHY I want to loose weight. I want to look good and feel healthy!! 


Remides to fixing stretch marks

So we all know that woman mainly develop stretch marks when they are pregnant.

Thats not the only reason for stretch marks, there are a few other causes to these ugly lines we get on our body.

My cause for them is picking up weight, going on a miracle diet, loose 10kg’s and gaining it all back again.

Being overweight causes many negative reactions in your body, stretch marks being one of them.

I came across these homemade remides that assist in fading stretch marks. I haven’t tried it yet, but I will.

Let’s have a look:


 What you will need

  • 1/2 cup organic coconut oil
  • 1/2 cup of ground coffee
  • 1.5 tbsp of ground cinnamon
  • 1/2 cup of sugar

How to use it

  • Add all ingredients together in a clean container and mix them until it forms a paste.
  • Gently scrub the affected area in the morning for 8 minutes.
  • Make sure that the scrub is stored in an airtight container so that it maintains its properties.

Potatoes– a great source of Vitamin C and Magnesium
What will you need

  • 1 medium sized potato
  • Lukewarm water

How to use it

  • Cut the potato in the thick slices and then rub the slices gently over the affected areas.
  • Now leave it on for 10 minutes and then wash it off with the lukewarm water.


What you will need

  • 1 egg
  • Water

How to use it

  • Separate the yolk from the egg white.
  • Now stir the egg whites and apply it on to the stretch marks. Leave it on for 20 minutes and then wash it off with clean water.

There we go, a few homemade recipes I found, that, I know sounds weird. I never thought eggs and potatoes would help for something like stretch marks but there’s no harm in trying, right?


The start of a new “ME”

Today is the start of my journey, the 15th. On my moms birthday (Happy Birthday mom)

Why did I choose this date?

It feels like its a DECISION to succeed!! If I started on the first it would’ve been a new years resolution, and we all know what happens to those….by the 15th it’s long gone!! I guess it’s once again a all in the mind thing, but if it works for my mind I’m happy.

I decided if I’m going to do this I need to it properly so I took before photos… Almost in tears when I saw them, I doubted if I really want to post them, but I said in the beginning, “this journey won’t be easy”, so I need to face the difficult moments aswell, get through it and prove to myself that I CAN do this!!!

So there we go, my before photos…

I am quite tall, I am 1.8m’s.

I need to weigh 75kg’s, because I’ve got medium bone structure.

I currently weigh 112kg’s, so I need to loose quite a bit. I gave myself a year, which I think is enough time to reach my goal weight which is 75kg.

So as of today I am doing it, I am fighting for my body to get back to where it is suppose to be!!! 

I will,

  •  Drink my 8 glasses of water a day, no gas coldrinks
  • No bread
  • Eat enough fruits
  • Look at my portion sizes
  • Cut out the Aromat ( I am addicted to Aromat, but NO more)
  • Cook my food healthy
  • Eat no sweeties, no chippies
  • Make healthy choices
  • Exercise twice a day, even if one exercise a day is just stretches or pilates, I will do something active twice a day
  • Sit less, move more
  • Stay happy and motivated

I am happy to share these horrific photos with you because I know I am still beautiful and I know I am sharing it because I won’t be looking like that in a years time.

Loosing weight is never easy but it is DEFINITELY worth it!!!”

We can do this together, I need all the support I can get, It’s NOT easy to admit that you are not happy with yourself but you need to do it if you want to change!!

I did my exercise this morning, my Pilates workout, I feel good and motivated.

 This afternoon I will do some skipping, squats and leg exercises, I will actually make a video and post it so that we can see my progress from day one.

This journey won’t be easy, but I will get to the other side much stronger and definitely much fitter!! December this year I am going into the Guess shop and I will be buying one of each jeans they’ve got!!! (They don’t have my size now) – that will be my reward, really!! My boyfriend said so, he is taking me shopping!!

It’s something to look forward to, when doing something for yourself you must always have a goal and if that goal is reached you need to have a reward to look forward to, thats my reward… Shopping at the GUESS shop!! Oelala I can’t wait!!!

Let’s do this!!! Lets get the bodies we’ve always wanted!!